She needs to hear shes beautiful

new one.. ill still use this one sometimes

2004-12-10T05:01:26Z

m0rethanw0rds_

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-12-07T15:24:00

2004-12-07T23:24:42Z

Yea, im really sick of school now.
It should totally be Christmas break already.

would you hold me, and never let go? <3

2004-12-07T21:39:49Z

& i <3 you

2004-12-07T05:12:59Z

Moving down an open road, asking our hearts for direction.
Cause we're so close.
I can see the faded signs, leading to the same destinations,
But you're not there.
We're dancing to the music, that ended long ago.
You've done everything that you can do.

<33333
I can tell, by the way that you love. I can tell that the fire is buring out.
Oh baby, I can tell, by the way that you hold me. I can tell, but the fire is buring out.</font>

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-12-05T19:23:00

2004-12-06T00:24:14Z

Can i be your f a l l i n g star,
So you can catch me,
__& see me from anywhere you are?

:D

2004-12-05T23:42:32Z

So this weekend was great, but went by way too fast.

Friday - had school, nothing special, but after school, Amanda called and we talked for a while, which led to us deciding to go to the play at school. We also talked to Lindsay, and I talked to Holly and Danielle, so all 5 of us went to see the play together. It was good. After that, I came home and talked online; as usual. Yes, fun.. I know.

Saturday - me & my sister went to acro. It was fun like it always is. I worked on my ariel and back tuck. Then after acro, we went home and fixed our hair, make-up, etc. then we were off to visit gymnastics. It was soo much fun; great seeing those girls. So, I was tumbling and stuff, and talking to everyone. Also, all the girls did their floor routines, which i enjoyed watching.. it was fun. I miss those girls so much & my couches. It was terriffic seeing all of them, great fun.

Today - woke up pretty late, then talked to Lindsay about going the movies. Me, her, and Amanda all went to see National Treasure, which was a good movie, we all thought. It was interesting & sorta scary.. yet funny. lol. Thats what we decided to call it. After the movies, I came home and did nothing, & im still doing nothing.

Yes, so it was a good weekend.
Comment if you would like //

<3

2004-12-02T22:08:40Z

today was pretty kick ass.
i was at lunch early --- hah, you have no idea how happy i was about that. fuck those damn lunch lines.

We don't need to justify, we don't need to wait
All will be revealed to us in time
And if you intellectualize the meaning of this fate
You may never know what we could find.

Don't keep me waiting
Don't you keep me hanging on the line
I'm only saying..
You won't know what love can do, if you never try.</font>

GREG KICKS ASS!!! hes so awesome and haawwttt!!
-- there you go, greg, lol

<3

2004-12-02T20:20:56Z

i adore you.

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-30T16:54:00

2004-11-30T22:04:08Z

woo. i had the craziest thanksgiving ever. see, i was supposed to go to chicago to visit fam-like i do every year, but we couldnt go because there was supposed to be a snow belt in indiana, which really stunk because thanksgiving is like the only time i get to see my family all year. :/ so it was dissapointing, but i still had a good one. me, jenna, mom, dad, and austin. it was just a regular thanksgiving i guess. i dont know, but i really miss my family. sigh. okay, well besides thnaksgiving, the rest of the little break was awesome. the best thing that has happened to me is that i am going out with doug :) that made me the happiest person, and i really like him and im gonna try real hard to make this work. umm.. well, yesterday was awesome. i went over to tyler's house with tera and doug. it was so much fun, and eventually 5 other guys were over. lol. im not gonna talk about everything cause that would take too long, but yea.. it was such a fun day. lol yes well.. today we went back to school, and it was boring as heck.. and i dont have dance tonight so ill be home all night. fun fun. oh, and greg is such a hottie and awesome, lol.

comment if you wanna ;)

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-28T21:33:00

2004-11-29T02:33:56Z

ugh... im sooo happy!!! :D

I LOVE YOU, DOUG!!!

hah, thanks tera.
and yes, that is very true.
i mean look at that beautiful art work! its awesome!-
and colored by me ;) hehe

love you <333

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-28T04:32:00

2004-11-28T09:33:08Z

Just a friend, that's all I've ever been to you
Oh just a girl, who wants to be the center of your world.

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-26T20:15:00

2004-11-27T01:19:40Z

Am I...
- am i cute?
- am i pretty?
- am i crazy?
- am i lovable?
- am i funny?
- am i annoying?
- am i psycho?
- am i daring?
- am i a good person?

Would You...
- would you hug me?
- would you miss me if i was gone?
- would you kiss me?
- would you listen to my problems?
- would you be a good friend?
- would you be my best friend?

Would You Ever...
- would you ever go out with me?
- would you ever do it again if you already have?
- would you ever marry me if you could?

If You Could...
- if you could give me a new name, it would be?
- if you could do one thing with me, it would be?
- if you could give me a piece of advice, it would be?
- if you could kidnap me for a day, where would we go?

Just A Few Questions...
- what do you love about me?
- what do you hate about me?
- what is my best quality?
- if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
- what is your honest opinion about me?
- what would you do if i sang out of tune?
- what song reminds you of me?
- do i remind you of any characters on tv?
- have you ever had a dream about me?
- do you think i'm a virgin?
- if you just met me, how old would you guess i am?
- am i huggable?
- if you could give me anything, what would it be?
- if you could promise me anything, what would it be?

Personal...
- am i ugly, average, decent, good looking, beautiful, gorgeous etc.?
- if you could describe me in one word, what would that word be?
- when we first talked, what were your thoughts?
- if you had to describe to someone who i am and what i am like, what would you tell them?
- what are my faults?
- what are my strengths?
- do you wish we were closer?
- why aren't we closer?

thank ya. <333

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-25T12:43:00

2004-11-25T17:46:12Z

Leave a coment saying what you think of me. Pretty; Ugly? Nice; Mean? Anything whatsoever. And when i comment back, i will tell you what i think of you also :)

i made that up, im so proud of myself. hah
-<3stephanie

hah, im still up.

2004-11-25T08:06:59Z

this feeling inside is killing me </3
ill update more tomorrow.

oh, and im thinking about making this journal at least 80% friends only.

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-22T23:14:00

2004-11-23T04:55:42Z

LAYER ONE: On The Outside
- Name: Stephanie
- Nickname: Stephi, Steph >>> im sure there's more. comment if you know more.
- Birth date: Good ol' April 5, 1991 .. hah, im cool.
- Birthplace: Chicago, Illinois baby!!!
- Current Location: W. Bloomfield, MI
- Eye Color: Brown
- Hair Color: I'm totally a brunette ;)
- Height: Pssh. Who cares.
- Righty or Lefty: Rightaayy
- Zodiac Sign: Aries, berries :Þ

LAYER TWO: On The Inside
- Your heritage: American.. doy. Oh, & im Sweeeeeedish :D
- The shoes you wore today: Defiantly wore my addidas.
- Who you look like: People say i look like my sister.
- Your weakness: Painting my nails, hah.
- Your fears: Clowns freak my out. :o) << AHH!! haha.
- Your perfect pizza: Cheeeeese pleeeeasse :D
- Goal you'd like to achieve: Wooosh.. many.

LAYER THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
- Your most overused phrase on AIM: saweeeet
- Your thoughts first waking up: Time to go back to sleep for 10 mintues :)
- Your best physical feature: My eyes, and also.. people say i do my eye make-up very well.. mhhmm.
- Your bedtime: 10, but i think it should really be 10:30 just cause i need more time online. lol
- Your most missed memory: I miss many things, but i dont really consider them memories. Hmmm... well one that is a memory is gymnastics. It was my life for about 3-4? years. Yeah, i gotta visit soon.

LAYER FOUR: Your Pick
- Pop or Water: H2O BABBBYYY!!! hah, i changed this question just to do that.. for me to smile and because i love my best friend, tera :) hehe
- McDonald's or burger King: B.K. baybay. and im also going there tomorrow ;)
- Single or group dates: Group- more fun.. ((less pressure << i agree with tera))
- Adidas or Nike: Addidas
- Chocolate or vanilla: Mmmm, Chocolate.
- Cappuccino or coffee: Never had either, so i wouldnt know.

LAYER FIVE: Do You?
- Smoke: Umm. no.
- Cuss: Yeah
- Sing: Oh hell yes.
- Have a crush: Meh, yea. :/
- Think you've been in love: I used to think i was, but i realized that i dont know what it really means.
- Like high school: Havent been there yet. My sister seems to like it, i think? lol
- Want to get married: Yes, i do.
- Believe in yourself: Most of the time. I try.
- Think you're attractive: Ehhhh
- Think you're a health freak: Where'd that come from? Hah, no.
- Get along with your parents: Yes, other than when i want to be alone. Yelling, i hate the yelling.
- Like thunderstorms: YEAH! They are sweet
- Play an instrument: Clarinet *blushes* Woo, im a nerd.

LAYER SIX: In the past month...
- Drank alcohol: Nope, never have either
- Done a drug: Same ^
- Gone to the mall: NO, DAMN IT!
- Cried: Yes :/
- Kissed someone you didnt want to: I havent kissed someone in ages.
- Been on stage: I dont believe i have..
- Gone skating: Haha, you would never catch me skating or rollerblading. Its too fucking complicated. lol
- Gone skinny dipping: Nah.
- Dyed your hair: Nope, and also a never have. I love my hair.
- Stolen anything: No.

LAYER SEVEN: Ever..
- Played a game that required removal of clothing: I wouldve.. ;) lol
- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Pffhhh, no.
- Been caught "doing something": Not yet 0:)
- Been called a tease: Nope.
- Gotten beaten up: No.
- Shoplifted: Never.

LAYER EIGHT:
- Age you hope to be married: 25-30
- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 boys, 1 girl. Boys- Brandon, Kevin. Girl-Brittany
- Describe your dream wedding: Same old, same old.
- How do you want to die: Peacefully, happily; no pain involved.
- What do you want to be when you grow up: Interior Decorater. I know, pretty sweet. ;)
- What country would you most like to visit: Heck, i dont know.

LAYER NINE: In The Numbers...
- Number of people I could trust with my life: I have many, but i would love to put that Tera is my best friend and i can trust her the most out of everyone. Its pretty surprising because i havent known her as long as ive known most of my other friends. She gets me so well and understands where i am coming from. She listens to what i have to say, she makes me laugh like crazy and shes b e a uuuutiful. I love her so much its crazy. Bffl, i just know it.
- Number of CDs that I own: Lots and lots.
- Number of piercings: 2. One on each ear.
- Number of tattoos: Zelch.
- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Many- gymnastics, dance// also the school paper.
- Number of things in my past that I regret: I regret many things.

I hope you enjoyed that, im sure you did.

Comment because it will make you cool ;)

errrrr.. i hate this. >>> another poem i wrote

2004-11-22T21:54:23Z

Shes right about everything she says.
This really does hurt in the head.
I still like you, but you just make me so mad.
If you ever are hurt like this, i wont feel bad.

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-21T23:36:00

2004-11-22T04:36:55Z

Are you hott? by evildj23
First Name
Age
Guy or Gal
Your hottness is	10...WOW! ARE U SINGLE?!?!

Quiz created with MemeGen!

^hah

made up another poem.. again.

2004-11-22T02:01:50Z

its hard to hold on, when you want to let go.
its hard to laugh, when you just dont know.
its hard to see, when somethings blocking your sight.
its hard to smile, when things really arent alright.

new poem i made up

2004-11-21T20:12:27Z

boy, ive changed my mind about you. im not gonna do things you dont want me to. im not gonna complain, im not gonna fall. falling, oh baby, thats the worst of all.

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-21T10:23:00

2004-11-21T15:28:10Z

so yesterday was awesome. welllll at first i was really bored and tired, but then tera came over and we were reaaallly hyper. lol. we were talking to greg and doug on two different phones. yes, we were switching people. very fun. but greg totally had to go, so that stunk. well anywhos, after all that we were just watching tv and eating. then eventually we were on the phone again with tyler, doug, andrew, james, and cole. it was fun. wow, they are such pervs. lol. okay, well im not gonna get into that. hmm.. then we baked some yummy chocolate chip cookies and ate them. they were scrumptious. annnddd we were on the phone again with all them til 1:00am. yes, thats right. theennn me and tera went to sleep. now, we are just online and hanging out, waiting for my parents to get back with the donuts. yep, i think thats about it. im gonna go now.

ta ta, my loves
<3 <3 <3

the best of me

2004-11-20T21:10:34Z

tell me what you thought about when you were gone and so alone. the worst is over, you can have the best of me. we got older, but we're still young. we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up. here we lay again, on two separate beds. riding phone lines to meet a familiar voice, and pictures drawn from memory. we reflect on miscommunication and misunderstandings, and missing each other too much to have had to let go.

woosh.. today has been tiring. welll, tonight will defiantly be fun. only me and one person know why. hehe. hmm, okay. i woke up for dance at like 8:30, which totally sucked ass, and i was at dance from 9:30am til 1:00pm. yes, unbelieveable, i know. after that, i came home and took a really long shower since i was sore. it was delighful. and now, i am talking online to greg, who is so awesome, and im listening to music. yes. cool. jfkgfghfkd alright im out.

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-20T01:24:00

2004-11-20T06:55:30Z

& somehow, i completely fell for you all over again. when i see you, even in a distance, i get nervous just thinking about what could possibly happen when you walk by; stop and chat? a smile? or maybe just a glance? i hope that something will lead to another chance.

I need this, just one kiss, a gentle touch, your sweet caress.
My heart will break my ribs if I hold this in.
I must confess.
---> I hate myself for needing this.
I love our twisted little mess :::
// I know it's w.r.o.n.g, but it just feels right.
The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight.

^ Show me where it hurts ^
Show me what love's done to you.
___ Don't try to move, you'll only make it worse than it is already.
You had to be so strong, and I had to be so useless.
>> I'm always fucking useless, useless without you.

I'm s/c/a/r/e/d as hell.
It's about time that I tell you all the things that you should know.
All the things I'm too scared to s-h-o-w
(( I need you, I bleed you, I would give up breathing for you ))
If you would take my breath and hold it in
I need to be inside of you

the rest of my world really does disappear when i see you <3

settle_f0r_less @ 2004-11-19T15:56:00

2004-11-19T21:08:40Z

today was a lot of fun. there was historical characters, so we like did nothing in class, which was saweet! l.arts was fun, but in math it was me, tera, rachel, ray, conner, and eric and we were all just talking and stuff. yea, it was fun. after all that we went to lunch. it was sooo much fun. so i got to the lunch room late and the line was soo fucking long, but luckily danielle let me come up in the front of the line by her :D hehe. thanks danielle. well anywho after i ate, me, tera, and morgan went over to tyler's table like we always do, but today.. doug was there too, and it was fun. we just kept talking about i dont know what, but yea.. that was sweet. we actually talked, which amazed me. lol. then after lunch, we ((me, tera, rachel)) were in mr. singelyns class for like EVER! cuz we had to stay in there for core skills today, and for core 3. and guess wut? thats my core 3 class! lucky me. so that was really boring. when the class was finally over, we went to encores. band- same old, same old. gym- it was pretty good for once. we played bball and i actually tried! you are so surprised, i know! i was the inspiration of the day. lol lindsay. hmmm.. so this weekend i have acro tomorrow like i usually do, but i also have rehersal for my ballet competition class and i have trio. yea, saturday is gonna be a long day. i might go to tera's that night, which would be awesome- tera, let me know, k? sunday i might go to the mall with lindsay. thatd be a fun day :) hmm well i think im gonna stop tying now. yea, i am. lol.

ta ta, my loves
<3 <3 <3

kgldkgks

2004-11-19T05:13:31Z

chicago..</font> my home town <333

& sometimes, no matter how much you want to, you can never go back.

jfdskgfh

2004-11-17T21:06:59Z

Today was actually fun for once. lol

L.arts- we did peer editing and all that other shit, but we did happen to visit the book fair which was fun. Me, Tera, Rachel, and Mike were just talking and stuff, then Rachel finds this book that is at 1st grade level and starts reading it to us. And to read it, there was some words, and then there was pictures. Like.. there would be a picture of a dog instead of the word dog. Haha, and all this other stuff. And there was this picture that was supposedly a blanket, but Rachel was calling it a bush. lol. It was funny. And she was like "MRS. STRING-ER ((haha)) MRS. STRING-ER!!...."LET ME READ THIS BOOK TO YOU" lol. It was hilarious listening to her read it to Mrs. Stringer. So after that we went back to class and were watching this gay movie about Pronouns, Verbs, Etc. --- Conjunction-junction..Whats your function?! lol. Yea, that movie.

Math- this was also funnnn. So like we were checking homework which took FOREVER cuz Mrs. Walsh wasnt there and Ms. Jones, the student teacher, was filling in for her. Jeez oh peets, i was gonna kill someone! lol. So after that we finsished the rest of our study guide and yea. Then Ray and Tera, like they always do, were seeing whose pencil was bigger. Its hilarious. Then Conner came over and took Ray's pencil and sharpened it so that it was like practically gone. lmao. And Ray made this sad face.. haha it was funny. Then Conner was throwing these like checkers at me, lol, and then he was attempting to bounce a checker off of Ray's head to Tera's head. lol. It was funny watching him try. AND OMG!.. then Eric came over and he was like humping the air...EW. omg. And im like "yea, okay.. you kinda need to stop that RIGHT NOW.. yeahhh, go away" But he just wouldnt go away, but then he finally HAD to go sit down. Thank god. Me and Tera were very disturbed. lol. Hmm.. and i think thats about it. And of course, me and Tera always poke Ray in math, which is just fun. lol

Social Studies- oral quiz.. 100%, baby... ohhh yesss. Ummm.. my citizenship grade got changed to a 1! YUSS! Now i have all 1's. hehe. I am just a perfect angel in class. 0:) Anddd... nothing else.

Science- it was pretty good at first, but then me and Liz were just talking a lot and laughing lol. So i wasnt hyper at first, but then when i saw that kid with the sour face in the science book, i just started cracking up. It look like he was like taking a crap. lol. Then i just kept bugging Liz cuz i was hyper. Then we were both hyper and were just laughing at the stupidest things. Haha, that girl is hilarious. Im glad i got to sit by her again :) Yea, and that was about it for that.

Band- tornado drill, boring as heck, and someone was humming and like wouldnt stop and Holly just couldnt take it anymore! lol. She was like "SHUT UP!!!" lol it was funny. Then we had to play, yea.. thats always fun. *rolls eyes* lol

Gym- gay as heck. im telling you, that class is soo boring, and it was even more boring cuz Lindsay left early and i was by myself in the line for running drills- which is soo un-nifty! .. haha, un-nifty, i like that. lol. And yea.

NOW IM HOME AND I FINISHED MY HW AND THERE IS NO TRIO TONIGHT! :D YUSSSSS!!!!

// Thoughts go through my head, bitter memories, broken hearts to mend. Laying in my bed at night, I think why didn’t I do this or that? Would it have been so hard to stand up for what I thought was right? Am I good enough? Should I lie? Am I who I want them to see? Should I even try? Tears steam down from my eyes, I’m not who I want to be. I want to be different, I want to change, I want to leave, I want to stay. I want to be held, I want to be free, I want to be myself, not who they want me to be </3 \\

Comment :)

... so i made that. lol.

All those times he said he loves you...
All those times you thought you would never find someone new
You Realize it was all just a game full of heart breakes and stuff you can not tame
Eventually you learn to say 1 heart break comes another day
You Find someone new
How is it you know he is meant for you
Your not very sure what love is
Somehow you are almost positive
*Its him*
Forget all the heart breaks and dont every worry about that one stupid guy who was never worth it.

^ that was in Tera's away message.
I love her to death, and she inspires me :)